The clean, the cleansed and the 😈 dirty…
For most of my life, I had a sense of disgust towards all things sexual. There were certain layers of shame that kept it alive. But also, the ways 99% of all modern porn is created, felt very “dirty” to me.
Not in the sense of actually being dirty, yet it created a program in my subconscious mind. A program that pulled me out of my own body as I thought of sex, and into a sort of distant fantasy world.
In this realm, only one aspect of me, my physical desires, was acknowledged, while the rest of my being was overlooked. In other words, it was a world of LUST rather than LOVE.
Most of my life I had a shameful relationship to sex. My parents wouldn’t speak much about it (or not at all), and the only queer individual I knew was a man in leggings, known for his gardening passion. Regrettably, he became the subject of gossip and judgment among those who knew him.
Coming from there, it did take me years to re-define what sex and sensuality means to me today.
I came out quite late – in my early 20s – and over the duration of my “existence” as an open queer and gay man, I focused mainly on healing parts of me that have been neglected and judged.
The idea of creating a space to show and share what has helped me heal has been around since 2019, yet I didn’t feel the level of confidence and clarity to step out and create what you see here today.
In other words, for me to get “dirty and naked” here, required me a deep level of cleansing. I never just wanted to create sexy content for the sake of a) making money, b) pleasing me and you solely sexually, and c) showing skin to keep you in the matrix of lust.
My vision was always to craft a healing sanctuary, employing sensuality and self-expression as gateways to liberate ourselves from the self-destructive patterns that had become ingrained. The ultimate goal: to reinstate sex as a sacred act of love.
So if I get dirty here with ya, it’s a kind of dirty that won’t add clutter to the oversexed mind, but much more invites you to practice a deeper kind of loving and love-making.
I am profoundly grateful to witness how you have chosen to walk this transformative journey alongside me. 🙏🏽❤️
🐉 Mo
